#3 You.

What time did you say you'd arrive?

#2 You.

I know you, once.

#1 You.

Where are you? Where have you been? Are you coming back?

Please come back.

Perfection.

I am wholly blinded to your imperfections.

You are perfect.

And perfect is you.

To heal.

I need a minute, maybe two. You will understand, will you?

What should I do?

That's a sign.

This dance.

You said we start with the left foot then the right. I think it starts with the right foot then the left.

We both swirl.

But you did the tango and I did the waltz.

Now.

Because when I say right, you go left. When you say left, I go right.

And that is why we are, where we are.

Mask

"Mommy, can I have the power rangers mask?" - Cole, 4 years old.

There are millions of masks. When you fake a smile, you wear a mask. When you pretend you're fine, you wear a mask. When the one you love is oblivious of how you feel, you wear a mask.

Everybody wears a mask. Hypocrisy is a mask that everyone owns. Now, don't you say you don't own one for that would be lying. And that is our second mask. Lies. Stop defending yourself, you know that it's true.

The two most ugly mask that one could own, and everybody has them.

The world would be a beautiful place, without such masks. Ah but then, my dear, would it be?

God blessed us all with a face. I'm not talking about our face, face. The face I'm talking about, is feelings. And that is what masks are for.

To protect your face. To hurt your face.

Our vulnerable faces.

Look for the ones, keep them close, tie them in a bundle if you must. Cherish the ones, the ones who take off their masks, and allow you to take off your mask, in their presence.

"You don't need it, honey. You're a power ranger, a better one, without the mask. Because you're true."

Rama-rama II

Suatu masa dahulu
kubisikkan pada rama-rama
agar membawa khabar
hatiku padanya.
Aku berjanji
akan kutunggu rama-rama
membawa berita
menjelaskan ekspresi
melakonkan reaksi
agar kutahu
isi hatimu.


Sudah tiga tahun lamanya
terbang rama-rama
kini kembali
membawa satu yang pasti.


Kulihat rama-rama
sayu terbangnya
berat sayapnya
dan aku tahu.


Kau bunuh rama-rama itu.
Kau bunuh rama-ramaku.


Dan telah kukatakan,
bila rama-rama menghilang,
jangan dicari lagi.
Hilang rama-rama,
hilanglah keikhlasanku,
hilang kata hatiku.
Dan bila aku membisu,
jangan dicari suaraku,
tidak akan kau ketemu.
Jangan dicari suaraku,
terlambat sudah semuanya.


Kini berakhirlah satu cerita
antara aku dan dia
Kerana dia bunuh rama-rama
Dia bunuh rama-rama.





2307 hour (13/12/09)


Notes : Here : Rama-rama You'll understand.

Secrets

You seem to smile with glee
when grotesque thoughts boil inside me
trying to make it through to my heart
to whisper the memories left forgotten
so the fortress I built would be broken.

I thought it is secure
for it had gone through so much and more
but as the rain falls down heavily
I now know.

But I am honestly tired of getting wet
I am tired of carrying this weight on my shoulders
I am tired of you breaking me apart
therefore I, will push you away
far, far away
lock you in a chest and throw away the key
far, far away
into a cave, deep down in the sea
so far away
that even if you wriggle and scream with all your might
you cannot break free.

Yes.
I will push you away
far, far away.


Notes : This was for the school magazine. But, alas.

The story

Are we at the middle part of the story?

Or are we at the end?

Rain, rain.

It is raining outside.

It is raining heavier in here.

My heart

When a heart breaks
it leaves no trace
no dust
no ashes
no pieces
how will you know?

It has no sound
it bears no scar
it is invincible to the naked eye.

Reach out and use your heart. For only a heart can reach another heart and when you see with your heart, you'll see how bad the other heart is. You'll see.

“Here is my secret. It is very simple: It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye.”

—	The Little Prince by Antoine de Saint Exupéry

Eksperimen

Inginku tafsir dirimu
Namun tidakku mampu.
Telah kujalankan seribu analisa
hasilnya tetap juga sama.
Engkau, tetap juga sama.

Bagai satu ketetapan
tidak dipengaruhi unsur luar
tiada perubahan
satu pemalar.

Aku
pemboleh ubahmu
yang berubah mengikut rentakmu
dan bertindak balas mengikut iramamu
Hipotesisnya
aku berubah selaras dengan kehendakmu
Inferensnya
gagal kutemu.

Dan bila begitu,
gagallah satu uji kaji
tergantunglah satu komplikasi
kerana tiada kujumpa konklusi.


0108 hour (04/12/09)


Notes : thats the way you roll?