In his element.

When I thought I recovered
in deeper I fall
I falter.

Memories, were erased
but a new one form
one I cant deny its perfection
one with him in his element

O how can I resist
such a beautiful sight
O how can I resist
such a lovely melody
I sigh.

Perfection,
when he is in his element.





2225 (29/05/09)

Concussion

Shivering
In this hour of confusion
drowning in these chaotic thoughts
trying to find the words best to use
will i find you?

Once,
it was warm and elated
that light firing in your eyes
now it is cold and hard
spearing pieces and pieces of my heart.

Maybe it is I, to be blamed
for freezing the scorching flame
oh what a crime committed
It started a war
a battle neither won but one
only sorrow.

Now I sit here waiting
for it to come.

An explosion of a thousand words.
but all i could see
is I miss you.



1722 (23/05/09)


concussion :
1. shock caused by the impact of a collision, blow, etc.
2. the act of violently shaking or jarring.

Stay

When everything seems to fall apart
and you're lost in your confusion
when you stumble and fall into a hole
and darkness gleefully wraps its arms around you
when evil thoughts threaten to translate into actions
and you're too weak to say no
run away
run to me
I'll save you from your misery
I might not give much
my ears, my mind and my sympathy are all that I could offer
I might not make things right
but I will try to make it all better.

But what if I'm not around?
Does that mean you're going to let yourself drown?
that's not how it should be, my friend
you should stay until the end.

In life,
there will always be complications
added with confusions
and a lot of frustrations
all wrap in one situation
but just be patient
and you'll see
things are not as bad as it seems.

When darkness tries to take over you
focus on the light at the end of the tunnel
just a little longer
stay a little stronger
you'll make it through
i can assure you.

So stay a little stronger
wait a little longer
you're going to make it through
I believe in you.


2000 (06/05/09)

especially dedicated to all my friends. Cause I know things are rough for all of us right now.

The Big Grey Elephant

There was a time
when no silence fill the spaces between us
there was a time
when nothing can stop our conversations
there was a time
when time isnt a limiting factor
but those times,
are long gone
i tried searching for it
but could not find it.

The great distance between us
we cannot handle
so we act like there's no problem
and shove the elephant to fill the space
but every play has its ending
and that's when we have to stop pretending.

Even with an elephant to fill the space
the space between us is still great
in time the big grey elephant gets annoying
and every day gets even more frustrating.

So i tried moving the elephant
and i succeed.
Little did i know
that it's the only thing keeping us together.
Little did i know.
Little did i know.


2044 (18/04/09)

The whole world said hello
but you, remained silent.
The whole world cares,
but you, pretended Im not there.
The whole world stopped
but you, continuedd to walk.

I fail to understand
why the whole world
and why not you?
Have I not the care of what the whole world would
but I care about how would you.

But you have prove to not care
and its painful to see
and to smell it
and to breathe it
and to taste it
but most of all to accept it
its like a giant rock squashing me.

What have I done
to be punished so cruelly?
Have I done something that hurt you?
Have I said something that poisoned you?
Have I..
Have I?

I fail to understand
what you have done
what you are doing
what i should do
why the whole world would,
but why, just not you.

23.43 (01/05/09)

-Circles-

Think before you speak out your mind
don't assume others would not mind
cause you're not the only one in the world
and we live in one big circle
so, what goes around, comes back around
and sometimes it hits the wrong person.

12.34pm (01/03/09)

-Silence-

Silence.
As I look at you looking at me.
Questioning, what happens now?
This evil silence,
so deafening, so painful to hear.
Cause when there are thousands to say
when there are only inches left to be close
when only joules of energy are needed to smile
silence, extends it pseudopodia
and
silence engulfs us.


Silence.
As I smile at you smiling at me.
Answering, what's on our minds.
This beautiful silence
so loud and clear, so perfect to our ears.
Cause everything is said through this silence
the distance between us is destroyed
no effort is needed to smile as it comes naturally
so silence, extends it pseudopodia
and
silence engulfs us.


The silence between us,
is sometimes good and is sometimes bad.


When we give each other the frozen stares
when I can only feel the wind as you passed by
when we let ourselves drown inside our thoughts
when I answer the question "what's on your mind" with my own ideas
when we could've just ask and try
We let ourselves be engulfed by the silence
and silence, fills the spaces between us
and soon suffocate us with its deafening echoes.


When we melt under each other's stares
when we feel each other's presence
when we hear each other's thoughts
when we are on the same lamda
when I know what you're thinking just by looking into your eyes
when all we need to do is smile
Silence, is the only thing we need,
the one thing that we do not hear
and in this silence, we always want to be.


But, even the most perfect silence
is not enough.
We cannot stay inside the silence
Cause some things just need to be said out loud.
And thus,
the silence, has to be broken.
So tell me what you're thinking,
cause the silence is not telling much.


My dear,
all the silence between us,
has to be broken.





-Lii
03.52pm (19/02/09)

-Footsteps-

I stand at the corridor
and I stare into space.
It's not him I'm looking at,
not her as well.
I'm looking at you,
from the pieces of my memory.
I can feel the wind, I hear the footsteps, I hear my thoughts.
I see you, and I smile.
All of a sudden,
the sound of the footsteps stops next to me.
No longer can I feel the wind or hear my thoughts
as I listen to the beatings of my own heart.
I look at you, and I smile.


-Lii
4.07pm (19/02/09)

-The pendulum-

I have no problems
just that one problem
and Im sick of that problem
it is oscillating like a pendulum.

my face is always damp
i dont see the end of it madame
i can not not give a damn
cause i am actually afraid to know the end

so i think ill just pretend
the pendulum will swing to no end.


-Lii
04.14 pm (08/02/09)

-My Camouflage-

Mask your pain with a smile,
and everything will look fine.
They'll think it hurts less,
and you couldnt care less,
when everything is a mess,
and you're really depressed,
so mask your pain with a smile.

Mask your pain with a smile,
it doesn't matter if he smiled.
He doesn't feel a thing,
cause to him, youre nothing,
even if to you, he's everything,
but you're the only one who's holding on to that 'thing'
so mask your pain with a smile.

Mask your pain with a smile,
cause I know you've tried.
And I know you're hurting,
and you're still hoping,
although it is very tiring,
cause you know he's not coming,
so mask your pain with a smile.

Mask your pain with a smile,
and everything will look just fine.



-Lii
9.20am (08/02/09)

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lets play a game of hide and seek,
you hide and i'll seek.
lets play a game of tag,
you run and ill come find you.
but im not in the mood for yoyo,
cause it makes me loco.
but youre so interested in that game,
its such a shame.

it goes up and it goes down,
i really dont want to frown.
boy, you're so confusing,
i dont find it amusing.

i need to know
even if it blows.
anything would be better than a game of yoyo,
cause it makes me loco.

-Lii
2.46pm (24/01/09)

-The Unsent Letter-

On a piece of paper,
i wrote a letter,
an unsent letter,
about everything that matters.

it once was lost,
but now is found.
could not figure out what to do,
should i give or should i not to you.

an old letter, about old thoughts.
i try to remember, all the notes.
oh it is a secret, between you and me.
but that's impossible, cause i'm the only one who believes,
in the existence of the unsent letter, about everything that matters,
and now i remember, what i should've always remember,
it's your happiness that matters, regardless of who i am to thee,
so now i am perfectly fine,
Yours truly, me.



-Lii
(04.29pm /17.01.09)