Only Human

I'm reading but I cannot make out the words written.
I'm looking but my vision is obscured.
I'm not listening.
I'm not listening

Throwing out your way of seeing it
And I see what it is that you are seeing
I'm seeing but I'm seeing something else besides
I'm seeing frustration and you're seeing opportunities
I see what you see
but understand what I'm seeing.

I need a moment
give me a moment
I need a moment.
For I am only human.

0220 hour (01/05/10)

Notes : Thanks for making my mind even worst. Thanks. This is on my future.

The Ugly Truth

You and me
stick together like mac and cheese
never really stick; always around each other.
I once thought we have an atomic bond.
I was wrong.

The acid that is our feelings
and all the words said
the acid that is the truth
corrodes the bond that was formed
weak as it is because of words unspoken
now melted, corroded, bit by bit.

I need only to create a distance
and push you away
and wait for a time
when you have grown tired
when all we shall remain
is what we once were.

1817 hour (24/04/10)

Kau Kan Tahu

Buat satu tempoh
kau menangguh
mengucapkan
kata-kata
hatimu.

Kini
kugenggam jawapan
dan pabila itu
patah sayapku
kukuburkan harapanku
gugur hatiku
dan berkecai takhta
yang kau rampas
yang enggan kau simpan.

Dan satu hari nanti
dikau kan mengerti
erti satu cinta
tulus dari hati
yang dibuang
tidak dipeduli.
Akan kau rasai
peritnya penderitaan ini
Dan akan kau sesali
melepaskanku pergi.


0011 hour (20/04/10)

Senses

I wish my legs will take me,
far away from here;
from this misery and frustration;
from this pain beyond imagination.

I wish my eyes won't see,
the truth that is blinding;
the eyesores that you created;
and you and your devil, at best.

I wish my ears will listen,
no more of my breaking heart;
to my mind, screaming words of abuse;
to you and bleed.

I wish my mouth would speak,
some sense to my heart;
and comfort my mind;
to you; to leave

I wish my mind would take a minute,
out of understanding this predicament
and just be angry;
out of thinking of you.

I wish my heart would stop
aching
breaking
beating
for you.

Numb me of my senses,
I won't take no more,
I can't take no more,
I shan't take no more,
none of these,
none of you.


2230 hour (14/04/10)

I see you.

It would be truly unfair if I were to say, "What did I see in you, anyway?"

For once upon a time, I did see something.

But I remember not what it is I've seen.

Yes, yes, I saw something in you.

Now all I see, is you.