Rama-rama

Bila rindu terbang ke langit ,
bagai rama-rama mencari bunga,
aku senyum.
Kerana aku, fikirkan kamu.


Jangan bunuh rama-rama itu,
tanda keikhlasanku.
Biar bayu membantu,
rama-rama mencarimu,
membawa kata hatiku.
Sayu.
Kerana aku rindu.


Jangan dikau hanya melihat indahnya rama-rama,
dengarlah bisikannya,
untuk kamu,
dariku.
Dengarlah dengar,
untuk kamu,
dari aku.
Sungguh aku ingin tahu,
apa katamu,
sesudah semua terungkai.


Bila rama-rama menghilang,
jangan dicari lagi.
Hilang rama-rama,
hilanglah keikhlasanku,
hilang kata hatiku.
Dan bila aku membisu,
jangan dicari suaraku,
tidak akan kau ketemu.
Jangan dicari suaraku,
terlambat sudah semuanya.


Pergi rama-rama,
cari dirinya,
bisikkan kata,
lihat reaksinya.
Apa katanya?
Apa ekspresinya?
Aku kan menunggu,
kembalinya rama-rama.




2233hours (31/07/09)








Note : Inspired by the title of the play written by Noordin Hassan. I love that line very much ; Jangan Bunuh Rama - Rama. And I do love the play as well. Extremely well written. how i wish! ahhh!

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Cigarette

I've been smoking this cigarette
long since my first.
Its packaging changed since then.
Its name remains the same.
Tastes slightly different since then.
Addictive, all the same.

I tried.
Five to one packet per day.
In vain.

Constantly stuck,
glued in my mind,
how it tastes.

I promised.
One last puff, I said.
And so I took one long drag.
Invading every space in my mouth
like a ravenous beast hunting its prey.
Attacking my throat,
smoothly gliding through
heating them,
penetrating through my alveoli
filling my lungs
with dances from the dark.

I relish every moment.
Euphoria.

The cigarette in my hand screaming with victory.

Just like how I can't give it up.
I can't give up on you.
I smoke you.





2047 hours (26/07/09)

Satellite

I orbit you
like a satellite.

Enlighten me, you said.
Dismissed, the data I sent.
You only make assumptions.
You only see what you want to see.
I have shown you everything.
How then, can I possibly?

Damaged.
Like a broken satellite.
Who would have known.




2029 hours (16/07/09)

I know

I know.

I know the possible outcomes of this situation. I know. I know that there is a higher risk of the fall than there is the beginning of something. I know. I know that grey clouds are crowding over my head. I know. I know that important thing that I seem to "forget" to tell all the souls that are cheering for me. I know. I know that thing is what bothers me the most. I know. I know that thing should be enough to keep me away, far, far away, and even further. I know.

I know. I know. I know.

Yet here I am.



You're like an old habit. Something I'm so used to. Something I cant break away from.


Nor do I want to.
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Injustice

It is not fair.

Gloomy grey clouds crowd over my head. Threatening to release its contents. Down pouring, down, down, down. A heavy shower indeed. If you think that I would be afraid, you thought wrong. I rise to challenges, therefore, do not tempt me.

I want to think but I do not want to think about you. It's not confusing really. It is surprising how unconfused I feel. I know what Im feeling. For once, I am sure. I do not know about you, however. Nevertheless, not about you, I would want to think.

She asked me that question. I gave up thinking if anyone would. It caught me off guard. It chased away the clouds over my head. It painted the sky blue and clear. It called the wind and I can hear birds sing. I see the sun smiling at me. Instantly, I feel happy. What a feeling.


It is not fair.


Why do I only get the sparkle in my eyes when I think about you?

.

Time will tell

I have this, floating in mind
for hours and days and years
though I tried to repress it
but i...

Beauty, is not I
nor am i embraced by fame
i do not possess wealth
nor am i blessed with endless gifts
it ticks differently, my mind
and imperfections surround me
far from perfection
i am.

I have nothing more
to offer from any other lass.

But,
i wish you to know
my heart,
my soul,
my everything
is yours,
and yours alone.
Do with it what you desire.

I would love to move forward
if only I know where to go.

I will wait.
till it knows you no more
or
till it owns you forever.

Time,
will come and rescue me
the way i want it to
or the way it will.

I will be waiting for.




1959 hours (04/07/09)


Note : all that i can say.

Jiwang karat

Buat Seseorang

Setiap denyutan nadiku,
setiap hembusan nafasku,
setiap detikan waktu,
adalah,
buat seseorang.

Wahai seseorang,
dengarlah bisikan hati ini
yang ingin sekali dikau mengerti
dirinya.

Wahai seseorang,
walau alam bisa pisahkan kita
jika kamu ingat aku
pasti,
tiada sempadan antara kita.

Wahai seseorang,
tiada kata terindah
tiada karya terunggul
yang mampu kucipta
buat kamu,
untuk mengerti kata-kata hati.
Apakah kamu sanggup mendengar bayu?

Harapanku hanya
kita dalam frekuensi yang sama
jelas buatmu mendengar.
Dibawah langit yang sama
ditaburi bintang
aku fikirkan kamu
dan
kamu fikirkan aku.

Selamat tinggal.
Kita akan berjumpa lagi,
aku percaya.



0532 hours (29/06/09)


Notes : ha ha ha

Roads

My dear
this i write
i write because of you
for i have been thinking
but i could not find anything

i have walked
for so long
so far
it is no surprise that i am tired
exhausted
still i walk

i found intersections
how was i to make a decision?
tired and exhausted.
but i did
and i walked
and it led me back to where i started

i have walked for so long
so far
now, what should i do.


1829 hours (01/07/09)