J(II)

The two lines that are the mesmerizing eyes.

With a gaze that could burn the icy mountains.

Captivated, I am.

The air around you, so hypnotizing

I was choked with mystery

You are quite intriguing, sir.

I thought I heard the angels sing

when I look upon you.

Ah pray don't catch me with crimson cheeks.

Tried I did, to make the tingling stop

and the pounding slowed

but all the particles of me

are stimulated by your presence.

You are my stimulus

and I react favourably to you.

You have done much, sir

to excite my senses.

To that,

I reward you a smile.

1838 hours (11/01/11)

Note : ... :)

Trust to fall

I remember

the music in my heart

the dances I danced

whenever I am

in love.

Everything is a beauty

and every day, a blessing

and every minute not spent with a you; tormenting

but still I listened to the music

and danced, the dance

even when apart

for a you is always close to my heart.

I remember

the secret smiles carved

the possibilities of life

the endless fluttering of butterflies

full in my stomach.

Oh I remember it all!

And I yearn it all!

When will I ever trust enough to fall

I'll give my all.

2156 hours (07/01/11)

(empty)

When I knock

inside it echoes

I feel the nothingness within me

and in deep I fall

into the abyss

of empty.

I feel the nothingness eating me

and I tremble with fear

that I will reach the end of my fall

before I learn how to fly.

2148 hours (07/01/11)

Edited (13/01/11)

Wavering

I doubt my heart
and that is not a good sign
I was so focused on You
That I pushed, pushed you away
Is it true what I feel?
Is it true what you feel?

You are unlike all I've ever known
Different, very different, oh so very different
I wonder if it is wrong?
I wonder if you are right.

I was caught in a whirlwind
when it all started
I could not comprehend
trying to comprehend
beginning to understand.

Have I not it all straight and aligned
still arranging
and rearranging.

I pray for the time to stop ticking
for I fear it will be too late.
Let it not be too late
or should it even matter?



1135 hours (20/12/2010)


Note : when I was confused. (Note on the word was) The latter applies. All is well now.