Teman

Di bawah langit biru
aku di sini
mengejar mimpi
mencari diri.

Ingin ku dakap semua
mimpi dan kamu, kamu dan kamu
biar seiring dengan langkahku
telah aku cuba
namun mampukah seorang manusia membina
piramid sehebat piramid Giza?

Tidak.
Aku tidak mampu.
Aku hanya manusia biasa
yang bisa letih dan menduga
Dan aku sudah letih
Dan aku tidak lagi percaya
pada keikhlasanmu,
pada kita.

Wahai teman,
aku rindu kita yang dahulu
Ketika aku bersorak untuk kamu
dan kamu bersorak untuk aku.
Ketika bahumu tempatku bersandar
melepaskan lelah serta keluh kesah terhadap dunia.

Wahai teman,
kau berjanji akan sentiasa berada disisiku
kau telah berjanji ini dan itu.
Namun kau tipu.

Kau bukan yang dahulu lagi
Kau tidak percaya pada persahabatan ini lagi
Kau seperti malu
Aku kurang kelayakan di matamu.

Kau dan dia dan dia sama sahaja
Aku tertipu lagi.


2318 hours (25/12/2010)

Nota : 1. Ya, aku pun sudah tidak peduli lagi.
2. Contemporary writing?

Time

The clock ticks
telling me it is time.
I already knew
but I needed more signs.

The clock ticks
telling me it is time.
I ignored
all the signs.

The clock ticks
recording the time.
And I curl at the corner of the room
accompanied by misery

The clock ticks
rewinding the time
We are all-a-merry
going round and round.
Or were we?

The clock ticks
telling me it is time.
I have come to my senses
what little of my pride

The clock ticks
It is time.
One feet at one time,
going away.

The clock ticks
telling me the time
12 o'clock, 1 o'clock, 2 o'clock and so on.


2232 hours (8/11/10)

Painted memories

Every time I close my eyes
I wonder
to where will my thoughts be adrift.
I was afraid that it will drift to a memory
I no longer wish to keep.
It has been awhile
and I felt my wounds starting to heal
and only left me with scars
that remind me
where I have been.

You were the wound that bled me
'till I'm all dried up.
You were the wound that cut me
in so deep.

But I was healing
and you, remain a scar.
But a scar hurts more than a wound
sometimes.


2317 hour (16/10/10)

The Queen

I try with my hands and my knees
my brain pitching in.
With my eyes and my ears on guard
so my mouth'll be in control.

But my heart could never reach your heart.
Have you seen my soaked pillows?
the tears I shook away.
Have you heard of my pain?
the screams in my head.
Have you ever notice my happiness?
the shape of my broken smiles.

Was I ever good enough for you?


2106 hour (16/10/10)

M

You have shown me your tears
You have told me of the trophies you deserve
You have reasoned and justified
and yes, I have seen them
and yes, I understand
and yes, I know.

You throw your tantrums
You shout your silences
You burnt me with your stares
and you made you the centre of my life.

You want to be pleased
You want to be satisfied
but you are never
you are never.

Will you learn to be happy?
Will you learn to be thankful?
Age is creeping on you
and I'm sorry I can never do you justice
but I have tried.
I have tried.


2043 hour (16/10/10)

Be my Sun
be my moon
I'll be your cloud
I'll be your star
I'll be with you
eternally.


Note : something I wrote last year, I think.

The Universe

Like the end of a downpour
the pitter-patter of the raindrops,
stopping.
Like the smell of freshly mowed grass,
fading.
I loved you.

Like how the Sun shows its affection to Earth
hugging it with its light
by day
and reminds Earth that it loves it still
through the Moon reflecting its light
by night
and hence,
it loves it always.
I have loved you with all my might.

But even the Sun will eventually come to its end.
I have loved you.


2226 hour (09/10/10)


Note : and life goes on.